For my very first blog post I want to write on the importance of the Name I chose for this site. “My Weakness His Strength” comes from one of my life verses;
“…My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness…” 2 Cor 12:9
This was the response Paul had received after he asked the Lord three times to remove what Paul referred to as a “thorn in his side” Paul apparently had some form of physical, or other, ailment, that he was praying for healing, or relief from, and God basically said, no Paul I am not going to heal you, I am going to use your weakness to show my strength, because of this weakness you will be strong. I have had the above portion of this verse in a very prominent place in my home/life for over 10 years. Funny it took having breast cancer to realize that the better part of this verse (in my opinion) is Paul’s response;
“…Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10Therefore, I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong,” 2 Cor 12 9-10
I too have had my share of physical issues. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia about 8 years ago, this is a constant ongoing battle and I am one of the “lucky” ones, medications do help. As I have mentioned I am a breast cancer survivor, currently I have about 1 ½ years cancer free. I have also faced a sampling of other health concerns over the years, as well as currently.
It appears to me that God has been taking my strength little by little just waiting for me to see that it is His strength, His power that rests upon me, this is what I need. I need to trust in Him and Him alone.
Over the last couple of years, I have learned that God is my strength, there is no point to waste time looking anywhere else, and if He wants me laid up in bed then I will trust that there is a reason. Writing is my obedience to Him, saying that I am ready to give up my life, my will, my stubbornness, my health, my hopes and dreams, to trust Him completely. I surrender, I chose to trust and obey Him.
“And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it.” Luke9:23-24
God has been so loving and gentle to me even in my most stubborn moments. He has simply held me and waited patiently for me to open my eyes and see. He didn’t take all my strength at once, it was little by little, He only took what was necessary for me to learn.
In an odd way, it is a lot like in a military training camp (with God’s gentle touch). The first thing they do is tear you down completely, because only then can they build you up as a team. I am now ready to work as a team member. God is my Leader, my Counselor, my King, my Strength, my Peace, my God. He is my priority.
“I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.” John 15:5
I cannot abide in Him of my own strength, only by God’s strength can we abide in Him. He is the vine, we are the branches, the vine holds the branch, the branch doesn’t hold the vine. It would be like putting the cart before the horse, you are going to have a challenge trying to get a horse to push a cart, but you can get him to pull it with a little training. And don’t miss the last part of the verse,
“without me ye can do nothing” vs “I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me” Philippians 4:13
I do not expect to receive healing now that I have “learned”, for one this is only one lesson among many and many more to come. I expect that God will use my weakness to show His Strength through me and my life. However, if He should want to heal me, that works too. It is His plan that I am following, and we never quite get the full picture, sometimes it is only enough for this day.
Each day I pray that I will stay on the path He has laid out before me. Only then can I glorify Him, only then is my weakness of any use. I praise the Lord my God and Savior for each day, I try to do this even through the physical pain, although it is not always easy, and at times thinking is just too much. My health, good or bad is in His caring hands, I trust Him with it, through all of it.
For reasons beyond my knowledge or understanding God has asked me to write. Through this blog, I hope to honor Him. This adventure in writing, is for God; to show His strength through my weakness.
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